うわー 惚れ直すかも

So I've never really cared much about Ninomiya Kazunari other than the fact that I think he's a pretty good actor, but his hair in this PV makes him look so good *___*. I was thinking to myself, "Uwa.... I may be falling in love again lol." I used to never be all that into Oguri Shun either, but then after I saw him with really short hair in "Tokyo Dogs," I was like O,O .... Oh, my, he really is good-looking lol. Well, that's how I feel about Ninomiya in this PV for "Believe."

Some guys look better with shorter hair and some guys look good with their hair spiked like that *__* People really should wear their hair in ways that best suit them.

And I watched Lee Jun Ki's PV again today and decided, it's ok to have single eyelids. He looks hot without double eyelids, so I really should stop being so fixated on changing the way my eyes look. I grew up with my mom telling me that I'd look a lot prettier with double eyelids so I've been really self-conscious with the way I look. I basically poured all over every magazine, internet image, etc. that I could find of all these Asian stars to see who has double eyelids and who has single eyelids 'cause I just feel so genetically-gyped. Why do all these beautiful people have double eyelids? Does that mean I really am not pretty?

Yeah, I kind of went overboard lol. Kuroki Meisa looks like she may or may not have double eyelids, I can't really tell, but I think she's really pretty *___* Lee Jun Ki is so pretty and he has single eyelids so I think I can breathe easier now.

I think one of the reasons why the manga, "Aisubeki Musume-tachi" clicked so much with me -- despite the fact that it's by one of my fave mangaka/authors of all time, Yoshinaga Fumi -- is because of the different interactions and lives of the women in the story that I can kind of relate to. For instance, Mari, the mother of Yukiko -- the "main" character -- grew up with her mother always telling her that she's bucktoothed and not that pretty, so she has a complex and when people tell her that she's pretty, she doesn't believe them. I guess that's the same with me. No matter who tells me that I am pretty, I have a complex about myself that makes me not believe people when they say that. I don't like my eyelids, I don't like my nose, or my chin, or the roundness of my face, the largeness of my bone structure, my ugly fingers and fingernails, plus my gigantic feet. I have all these flaws that I just don't like, and it's not like they can change with exercise like my weight or something, so it's just kind of stuck for good. So I can't think that I'm pretty no matter how hard I try. Oh well ^_^; I want to find a guy like Mari does in the story.

She marries a younger man and an ex-host who is an aspiring actor for period dramas, and to top that, he is three years younger than her daughter, Yukiko lol. But he is exactly what she needs and I find it really sweet. *sigh* If only I can meet someone like that lol. I love that story, it's really nice.