I felt my hands shaking and my legs shaking as I was driving, because my car hit the 260F mark again. I was so scared. My heart can't take this, so I'm going to take my car to the dealership hopefully this Saturday so I can get it all fixed. While, I'm at it, I think I'm going to get it serviced and such too. I need to really grow up and take some control over the things happening in my life 'cause I've just been floating.
I'm not sure if I'm coherent anymore by this point in time. I had a great time with my friends in San Francisco and then had to deal with my car going on the fritz, then came home to see that the light was not on and that was really the tip of the iceberg. I had to really keep myself from losing my temper. I was already pretty wracked from the whole driving thing, and then to come home to that just made me crack.
I don't like being stressed like this. I can't handle it, not with all the stuff going on, and not with work being crazy busy. I almost cried today, because it was so stressful.
First my friends from Oregon drove down to see family -- and me as well -- and there are two sets of them, so we all meet up in San Francisco. My best friend called me and was like "My fiance and his cousins seem bored [with Japantown], are there any interesting places around?" I couldn't think of any off the top of my head 'cause I know that my friend loves a lot of things I like, and her fiance isn't easy to please, but isn't hard to amuse either (if it makes any sense) so I thought it would be fine, but they were bored and I couldn't think of anything for them do, so that was my number one stress-inducing factor. Then I started driving and my car seem fine and dandy until I saw that the temp was climbing. That was VERY scary. I nearly crashed into the car in front of me 'cause I was so freaked by my thermostat. I was really stressed for the 30 minutes it took me to get to Japantown. Then when I got there, my friend's fiance's cousins were kind of bored and I just can't really deal with it. I get a little nerve-wracked when I can't entertain people at the drop of the hat. I am a good entertainer, I try to divide up my attention among everyone, but it's so hard when they seem pretty disinterested and I don't know what to do after a long day at work and an incessant auto issue. It was just really stressful.
After that, we met my friend from college -- whom I love to pieces -- and my other friend (coworker) showed up later and all 7 of us went to dinner together after trying to pick a good restaurant. They wanted sushi so I picked Osaka-ya, which had noodles, donburi, and sushi so everyone could have something they wanted. My friend/coworker wanted noodles (I think she ended up getting a donburi though), and my other friends wanted sushi, and one wanted yakisoba, two did not like seafood and this place at everything, which could accommodate all those differentiating tastes and such so I picked there. I'm glad that worked out... Even trying to pick the restaurant was stressful for me 'cause I try so hard to please everyone.
I'm a bit of an entertainer out with friends so of course, I do quite a bit of talking in order to get some topics that are hilarious -- mostly self-deprecating -- so that the amusement stays throughout the course of the meal. It's so tiring at times, but I love my friends a lot so it was fun despite the energy spent on it lol. My coworker's friend (who is crushing on her) and he's also a mutual friend of mine, showed up later to join us for dinner 'cause he loves my coworker a lot and wants to spend lots of time with her. (God, he's so patient lol. He's a great catch if only she would like him more =_=;;; Poor thing....)
Anyway, dinner let me forget all the bad things that seem to be happening, and it was great. Then it was time to leave and of course, things kind of go nuts. My Oregonian friends wanted to look at my car and make sure it's ok. Well, it was ok... but it wasn't ok when I drove it home =_=;;; It was so not ok... It went all the way to max overheating and I was scared to death. I was just on the verge of tears as I drove 'cause I was so scared. I finally parked on the side of the road once I got into downtown of the little hamlet I live in. I parked my car and turned off the ignition. I waited 15 minutes for it to cool down and called my parents. Afterwards, I drove the last 5 minutes stretch home and was really rattled.
I can't handle these varying highs & lows in one day. It's exhausting =_=; *sigh* Oh well. At least I made it home in one piece and I'm fine now.
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