Nerves & Neuroticism

So as I'm about to fall asleep, the night before my first official day of work, I decided to ponder over some things that I need to do, change, or put my foot down on.

One of my resolutions is to be a more responsible adult and tonight, I kind of broke that resolution because I left my place without leaving a note, and I did not send my (somewhat neurotic) mother a message about my whereabouts before I disappeared for a good three hours today. My family worried as I went off with a friend to enjoy "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button," and then when the movie was over, I got a scathing lecture from both panicking mother and worried relatives =_=; *sigh* You would think that after a good twenty something years of living with my mother, I'd figure out by now that no matter what happens, I should always call to tell her where I am even if I'm not living with her anymore just so she won't think I got kidnapped in the city or something =_= *sigh* (And I know some of you are probably raising an eyebrow or two wondering why a twenty-something year-old grown woman would need to make daily phone calls to her mother each night, but seriously, I do it 'cause if I give her a peace of mind, I won't have to get an earful later).

Next, I really should have left a note to my landlady regardless of the situation 'cause now I'm sitting in bed, somewhat unnerved and in a little bit of fear, over what type of lecture awaits me from her in the morning. I did all my (self-assigned) chores today 'cause I feel like I need to be a neat freak out of the two of us in this house; I cooked some food for myself to eat for today and tomorrow; I did the laundry; tidied up my room a bit; and then finished up my CPA exam application. I got quite a bit done and was a bit exhausted so when I left with my friend to go to the movies, everything else just kind of slipped my mind. I don't even remember if I locked the front door on my way out. I only remember forgetting to turn the hallway light inside off, and leaving the front door light on, but then can't recall if I shook the doorknob at least once just so I knew it was locked or not. If I indeed forgot to lock it... I am so -- and I mean so, oh so bloody -- screwed. Credibility is something easily lost and not easily redeemed. My landlady and I have only really known each other for a little over a week, so we are still in the testing stages of our (somewhat bumpy) relationship. I would hate for her to lose trust in me and start treating me poorly for one (somewhat big) indiscretion (that was really an accident) =_=

So, while those fears occupy my mind, I have another case that I would like solved sometime soon in the future. One of my friends insist on visiting me during her spring break from graduate school, and I keep trying to turn her down and re-direct her vacation plans to sometime later (like during the summer) so I have time to focus on my job and not feel like I'm going to neglect when she's driven so many miles and hours just to see me. I tell her that I am going to be too busy to take time off, and she tells me that she is sure to charm my bosses because they are the parents of one of our former classmates. She confidently professes that she has been able to charm her high school best friend's mother -- who in her words "was a pickle" -- but I really want to tell her that "Yes, my employers are indeed the parents of our friend and classmate, and yes she may be very charming, but PLEASE remember that I am a NEW hire and these people are my BOSSES." They are not just the parents of a friend, and it's not like they are my parents, so I have no intentions of bringing my visiting friends to meet these parents -- whom have no blood relations to me -- especially during busy season, because in the end, these people are my BOSSES and I really would like to do well on my first official job during my probation period. I really want to do well, so I would really like my friend to understand me and not push me when I say "Please, DO NOT come visit me during spring break."

Anyway, I've spent way too much time ranting and should get some sleep. I need to be up at 7 in the morning, eat a good breakfast, and be dressed for work by 8, then drop off my mail at the post office at 8:30, and be at work by 8:45. Yes, I need a good full 2 hours to wake up, so I really should sign off now. Wish me luck for tomorrow.