I decided to re-watch last night's episode of Grey's Anatomy, because I loved the ending so much. I really am an angst whore 'cause anything that causes me to weep is just great. I love crying when reading books and watching movies. I just cry really easily and always tear up when watching or reading something great and last night's episode was just really good.
For those who haven't really been following the storyline as of late, last night's episode was the conclusion of a three episode arc concerning a serial killer (placed on death row) who was taken to Seattle Grace a broken toothbrush (or some other sharp object) was jammed into his spine. Because his execution date's in three days, the doctors were to keep him alive until he can be legally executed. Meanwhile, a sweet 10 year-old boy is in need of organs and the prisoner happens to be a match for him. The boundary between what's ethical and non-ethical is put to the test again and the result is quite astounding.
Off to the side, we have some humor concerning the sweet, little romance that's blossoming between our lovely "Little Grey" and McSteamy, and Izzie going really crazy =_= Apparently, she's sick and we don't exactly mean mentally ill -- though we've been thinking that that's the case for weeks -- she probably has some terminal illness (which may still be curable) and that's why Denny has come down from heaven to guide her up with him. However, she chooses to live and be with Alex, going to fight everything wrong in her body to stay here on earth.
Truly... the Crazy Izzie thing is kind of weird =_= but whatever works, I guess.
Friday, January 23, 2009
Kaname vs Zero
It's so hard to choose~! I feel very fickle when it comes to Vampire Knight. I love both Kaname and Zero and just can't choose between which one I feel that Yuuki should end up with. I started out with pairing Yuuki to Kaname and haven't really wavered even after Zero and Yuuki got closer in a sense. After learning about Kaname and Yuuki's past, I was more convinced that the two should be together... but now these last few chapters have been just torture on my poor heart. It just breaks my heart to see Zero and Yuuki the way that they have been, and the angstier a relationship becomes, the more I want the two to get together =_=; (And yes, I do realize that it makes absolutely no sense at all). Because I love both guys, I actually don't mind which one Yuuki ends up with now, but at the same time, I really want her to choose the best match =_= Ugh, this is torture. I don't want to wait another month for the next chapter (>_<)!!!!
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Salt Water Taffy
If I have to choose between which I like best at the moment... I have to say that Oregon salt water taffy definitely tastes better than the ones down here in Cali, which then makes me wonder... do Oregonians actually use salt water?
The taffy I got at a local shop today is pretty darn salty, while the ones I got from the coast up north don't taste quite so much. Makes you really think again, I guess.
Anyway... I walked to downtown again today. It's an approximate four mile way (to and from home), and great exercise. I haven't walked so much for a while so my abdominal muscles are definitely feeling the burn, which is great! ^_^ I went downtown yesterday to desposit my first paycheck and also to pick up a TransLink card for the public transportation over here, but the lady at the information booth told me to walk all the way back to where I live to get one. I thought it was strange and decided to walk back towards the direction of home to check and see if there are any retailers here that hold them. Well, when I checked the site, it only said that a shop in downtown carried it so I walked back down today to get one. Well, I don't really mind walking down there 'cause it gives me a chance to exercise, but still... there was a shop right around the corner and she sent me back up north 1.5 miles =_=; (Sad...)
Well, I got the card today and it's good 'cause now I can travel over to the city and not have my relatives spend $12 toll fee to pick me up and drop me off. I can save them time too. I know they keep telling me that they don't mind picking me up and such since they're retired and all, but I feel bad making them drive all the way up here to get me =_= *sigh*
Anyway, I'm pretty proud of myself for walking so much and getting a lot of my things done. Now all I need to do is clean up my room and the downstairs bathroom and call it good.
The taffy I got at a local shop today is pretty darn salty, while the ones I got from the coast up north don't taste quite so much. Makes you really think again, I guess.
Anyway... I walked to downtown again today. It's an approximate four mile way (to and from home), and great exercise. I haven't walked so much for a while so my abdominal muscles are definitely feeling the burn, which is great! ^_^ I went downtown yesterday to desposit my first paycheck and also to pick up a TransLink card for the public transportation over here, but the lady at the information booth told me to walk all the way back to where I live to get one. I thought it was strange and decided to walk back towards the direction of home to check and see if there are any retailers here that hold them. Well, when I checked the site, it only said that a shop in downtown carried it so I walked back down today to get one. Well, I don't really mind walking down there 'cause it gives me a chance to exercise, but still... there was a shop right around the corner and she sent me back up north 1.5 miles =_=; (Sad...)
Well, I got the card today and it's good 'cause now I can travel over to the city and not have my relatives spend $12 toll fee to pick me up and drop me off. I can save them time too. I know they keep telling me that they don't mind picking me up and such since they're retired and all, but I feel bad making them drive all the way up here to get me =_= *sigh*
Anyway, I'm pretty proud of myself for walking so much and getting a lot of my things done. Now all I need to do is clean up my room and the downstairs bathroom and call it good.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Technology & Mail
So I decided to update my McAfee Virus protection software after 2 years and sure enough, the lags and freezes stopped... somewhat. It's much better than before 'cause the "upgrade me" pop-up isn't shooting out from the taskbar anymore so my computer hasn't froze once at all. It's kind of strange, but not a bad thing.
I also tried to apply for a TransLink card for the bay area transportation system, but I accidentally exited the damn tab before I could submit my purchase so now I have an account with no card. It's very vexing. I sent an email to customer support... hopefully they'll delete my account or something so I can re-set it up =_=
The package I sent to my parents arrive at the restaurant today and my dad was pretty stoked to see all the Chinese New Year decorations I sent him. I figured that since he loves these sorts of things, I might as well buy plenty for him this year since it's the year of the ox and all ^__^. I'm glad it made it to them so quickly.
I also tried to apply for a TransLink card for the bay area transportation system, but I accidentally exited the damn tab before I could submit my purchase so now I have an account with no card. It's very vexing. I sent an email to customer support... hopefully they'll delete my account or something so I can re-set it up =_=
The package I sent to my parents arrive at the restaurant today and my dad was pretty stoked to see all the Chinese New Year decorations I sent him. I figured that since he loves these sorts of things, I might as well buy plenty for him this year since it's the year of the ox and all ^__^. I'm glad it made it to them so quickly.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Lars and the Real Girl
So my friend let me borrow this movie and I'm watching it on my PS2 right now and though I had my reservations about this movie in the beginning, I can say now that I really do like the story.
Basically, "Lars and the Real Girl" is about a socially inept, twenty-seven year-old man who orders a sex doll off the internet and treats her like a real woman. His older brother and sister in-law worry about his mental health and decide to go with him in his delusion for the time being until a doctor tells them what to do.
The family doctor, Dagmar, is a psychologist and Lars' brother, Gus, and sister in-law, Karin, send him to her. Dagmar pretends to treat Lars' "girlfriend," Bianca, while actually observing and treating him for his mental disorder. Because the situation is quite delicate, Dagmar asks that Karin and Gus continue along with this charade until Lars eventually gets better (or until Dagmar figures out whether Lars needs more intensive psychiatric treatment).
Besides Karin and Gus, the townspeople in the little hamlet where they live also go along with the disturbing charade until Lars can get better. Everyone treats Bianca as though she is real and in doing so, Lars ends up interacting with a lot of the townspeople. Prior to this, he has always hid himself in the garage behind his father's house -- which he and his brother inherited from their late father -- as a recluse. Because of Bianca's acceptance in the community and her being included in many social events, Lars is able to learn how to socialize better while also receiving psychiatric treatment from Dagmar. As the story progresses, the townspeople enjoy having Bianca around, and Lars begins to change.
The story is pretty sweet. It moves at an even pace, not too slow and not too fast. It has this innocent and pure feeling to it, yet it's tragic. There is a little humor, but it's bittersweet. The tone is very poignant and the script was just so well-done. I thought I would be bored, but I find it very touching, surprisingly. I think anyone who likes dramedies, would really enjoy this piece.
Basically, "Lars and the Real Girl" is about a socially inept, twenty-seven year-old man who orders a sex doll off the internet and treats her like a real woman. His older brother and sister in-law worry about his mental health and decide to go with him in his delusion for the time being until a doctor tells them what to do.
The family doctor, Dagmar, is a psychologist and Lars' brother, Gus, and sister in-law, Karin, send him to her. Dagmar pretends to treat Lars' "girlfriend," Bianca, while actually observing and treating him for his mental disorder. Because the situation is quite delicate, Dagmar asks that Karin and Gus continue along with this charade until Lars eventually gets better (or until Dagmar figures out whether Lars needs more intensive psychiatric treatment).
Besides Karin and Gus, the townspeople in the little hamlet where they live also go along with the disturbing charade until Lars can get better. Everyone treats Bianca as though she is real and in doing so, Lars ends up interacting with a lot of the townspeople. Prior to this, he has always hid himself in the garage behind his father's house -- which he and his brother inherited from their late father -- as a recluse. Because of Bianca's acceptance in the community and her being included in many social events, Lars is able to learn how to socialize better while also receiving psychiatric treatment from Dagmar. As the story progresses, the townspeople enjoy having Bianca around, and Lars begins to change.
The story is pretty sweet. It moves at an even pace, not too slow and not too fast. It has this innocent and pure feeling to it, yet it's tragic. There is a little humor, but it's bittersweet. The tone is very poignant and the script was just so well-done. I thought I would be bored, but I find it very touching, surprisingly. I think anyone who likes dramedies, would really enjoy this piece.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Living Life For The First Time
Today, I felt a little more alive than these past few days. Work was harder, but more satisfying, and at the end of the day, things were good if not great. I had been fighting back the urge to cry and whine about how much I hate work, but just as I was beginning to count down the days until I would be able to return to my family, things seem to pick up a bit.
During the last few days, I kept wondering to myself if this is all it will be, and if I really belong here at my new job and new home. I have been depressed, tired, confused and upset. I'm not looking for people to baby me at my job, but a little patience and understanding would be nice. Furrowed brows, blunt speech, and abstract to almost-no explanation for things really make life a bit hard to like at times. I find that it's on days when I make plans with friends and family that I seem more alive and motivated to get through work. When it's just me working and then going straight home, it's lonely and boring. I never thought that I would ever be able to feel so depressed being by myself, but I guess it's possible.
Anyway, today I had a dinner date with a couple of girl friends. Originally it was supposed to be my friend and me cooking dinner, but it changed into a "cookie party" at another one of our friend's houses. We had crab salad, freshly-baked sourdough bread, spinach salad, red wine, spinach dip & chips, and fresh cold crab for dinner. It's by far the best thing I've had since arriving in the bay area, and the most fun I've had in a while.
The dinner was low-key and cheerful. The five of us happily chatted away while good music played in the background and enjoyed great food. My friend's housemate, her friend, and I made the crab salad together. The housemate -- who is a French lady -- bought the ingredients and made the rice, plus put corn and chopped crab in bowls, while I diced the cucumber and tomatoes up into cubes. The friend, a marketing representative for a wine company (who is also French), mixed everything up later in the bowls. We brought the spinach salad, crab salad, some wine, spinach dip, and chips over to our cookie-baking friend's house. She made the best ginger cookies ever and they're just incredibly delicious. I stole a bunch home 'cause they're irresistible ^__^.
Anyway, it was lots of fun tonight and we all messed around with the piano in the house. I really don't think I've had so much fun in so long. I'm always the conservative type so I really am not fond of big parties and going to bars, but low-key dinner parties with good company are always very charming.
I used to wonder why people love going out so much, but I can see that when you're all alone and living really far away from family, your friends are really all you've got so you end up loving to go out often. I used to hate going out, but now I feel as though it's my only motivation during the day. In a way, I feel as though I'm really living life for the first time. Before, I'd just live like a recluse and never go out, but now I really enjoy it -- just not bars though.
In any case, maybe things won't be too bad after all.
During the last few days, I kept wondering to myself if this is all it will be, and if I really belong here at my new job and new home. I have been depressed, tired, confused and upset. I'm not looking for people to baby me at my job, but a little patience and understanding would be nice. Furrowed brows, blunt speech, and abstract to almost-no explanation for things really make life a bit hard to like at times. I find that it's on days when I make plans with friends and family that I seem more alive and motivated to get through work. When it's just me working and then going straight home, it's lonely and boring. I never thought that I would ever be able to feel so depressed being by myself, but I guess it's possible.
Anyway, today I had a dinner date with a couple of girl friends. Originally it was supposed to be my friend and me cooking dinner, but it changed into a "cookie party" at another one of our friend's houses. We had crab salad, freshly-baked sourdough bread, spinach salad, red wine, spinach dip & chips, and fresh cold crab for dinner. It's by far the best thing I've had since arriving in the bay area, and the most fun I've had in a while.
The dinner was low-key and cheerful. The five of us happily chatted away while good music played in the background and enjoyed great food. My friend's housemate, her friend, and I made the crab salad together. The housemate -- who is a French lady -- bought the ingredients and made the rice, plus put corn and chopped crab in bowls, while I diced the cucumber and tomatoes up into cubes. The friend, a marketing representative for a wine company (who is also French), mixed everything up later in the bowls. We brought the spinach salad, crab salad, some wine, spinach dip, and chips over to our cookie-baking friend's house. She made the best ginger cookies ever and they're just incredibly delicious. I stole a bunch home 'cause they're irresistible ^__^.
Anyway, it was lots of fun tonight and we all messed around with the piano in the house. I really don't think I've had so much fun in so long. I'm always the conservative type so I really am not fond of big parties and going to bars, but low-key dinner parties with good company are always very charming.
I used to wonder why people love going out so much, but I can see that when you're all alone and living really far away from family, your friends are really all you've got so you end up loving to go out often. I used to hate going out, but now I feel as though it's my only motivation during the day. In a way, I feel as though I'm really living life for the first time. Before, I'd just live like a recluse and never go out, but now I really enjoy it -- just not bars though.
In any case, maybe things won't be too bad after all.
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Stalker Shannon & Priceless Expression
So I decided to watch "The Bachelor" with Jason Mesnick just to see how badly these women embarrass themselves =_=; I don't know why I put myself through such torture, but I really do like this guy so I want to see what happens. Anyway, there's this dental hygienist called Shannon who kind of acts like a stalker. She's freaky and that one moment where she's telling Jason everything she knows about him, his expression is totally priceless. I mean, it's drop-dead funny. He also had the funniest expression when Dominique from Pennsylvania told him about toe implants lol.
I like Molly 'cause she's kind of classy and pretty. Shelby's nice and I like her positive attitude. Raquel's pretty and the most daring one of the group, but I'm not sure if I'm fond of her. Jillian is super cute with her peculiar hotdog theory, but her Canadian accent is quite adorable. Nikki's very nice too and though she's kind of eccentric, I like her too. My top three are Molly, Jillian, and Nikki for now, but we'll see what happens. I'm not really a fan of Megan or Erica, but I do prefer Megan over Erica =_=; Megan left a fourteen month old baby at home to be on "The Bachelor" and then preaches about the bond between parent and child when she's so far away from her baby. There's just something hypocritical about that =_=; Then I just don't get a good vibe from Erica. She seems like a drama queen.
Oh, I really like Stephanie the widow though. I think she's one of the most genuine women on the show right now and I really like her. She looks kind of old, but she has a good heart. I think she would be perfect for Jason, but we'll see how he thinks =_=;
In the preview segment, we see that he proposes to a brunette in a blue dress, so I've officially eliminated all the blonds from the final pick. So even though I like Molly, she's probably not the one. I hope it's Jillian, Stephanie, or Nikki though. Melissa the Cowboys cheerleader isn't too bad too, so I guess I'll pull for her as well. Also... DeAnna comes back =_=; Maybe it's just me, but I can totally feel my respect for her dwindling down at a fast pace. She's already had her chance with Jason and blew it, she really should leave him alone and get a life =_= I liked her before, but she's pretty frustratingly self-absorbed now. Maybe part of it was because of Brad, but seriously... she's like the only person to be on three Bachelor/Bachelorette shows now =_=; Does she like being on camera that much?
Well, I don't know, but I think she should've just let it be. Then again, previews don't always look the way they seem so we'll have to watch and see.
I like Molly 'cause she's kind of classy and pretty. Shelby's nice and I like her positive attitude. Raquel's pretty and the most daring one of the group, but I'm not sure if I'm fond of her. Jillian is super cute with her peculiar hotdog theory, but her Canadian accent is quite adorable. Nikki's very nice too and though she's kind of eccentric, I like her too. My top three are Molly, Jillian, and Nikki for now, but we'll see what happens. I'm not really a fan of Megan or Erica, but I do prefer Megan over Erica =_=; Megan left a fourteen month old baby at home to be on "The Bachelor" and then preaches about the bond between parent and child when she's so far away from her baby. There's just something hypocritical about that =_=; Then I just don't get a good vibe from Erica. She seems like a drama queen.
Oh, I really like Stephanie the widow though. I think she's one of the most genuine women on the show right now and I really like her. She looks kind of old, but she has a good heart. I think she would be perfect for Jason, but we'll see how he thinks =_=;
In the preview segment, we see that he proposes to a brunette in a blue dress, so I've officially eliminated all the blonds from the final pick. So even though I like Molly, she's probably not the one. I hope it's Jillian, Stephanie, or Nikki though. Melissa the Cowboys cheerleader isn't too bad too, so I guess I'll pull for her as well. Also... DeAnna comes back =_=; Maybe it's just me, but I can totally feel my respect for her dwindling down at a fast pace. She's already had her chance with Jason and blew it, she really should leave him alone and get a life =_= I liked her before, but she's pretty frustratingly self-absorbed now. Maybe part of it was because of Brad, but seriously... she's like the only person to be on three Bachelor/Bachelorette shows now =_=; Does she like being on camera that much?
Well, I don't know, but I think she should've just let it be. Then again, previews don't always look the way they seem so we'll have to watch and see.
Monday, January 5, 2009
First Day as a Career Woman
For some reason, I certainly did not feel as though I was treated like a newbie today. It was the oddest feeling ever. I guess this is the difference between larger and smaller firms ^_^;; I didn't really get an orientation and I didn't even really even sign any documents =_=; I kind of just did a lot of administrative work today... following my friend's example.
By some stroke of luck or fate, I share an office with my college buddy and friend. It's really kind of nice 'cause I can ask her anything without any fear and since I already know a couple other people in the firm, I'm settling in kind of nicely though there are still some barriers to break -- in a sense.
The entire office is women. I swear, there are like no guys at all in this firm except for one, and that's one of the partners. I can only say this... an ALL WOMEN environment can be an incredibly interesting thing =_=; (No wonder I was warned of office politics prior to my first day of work). But I'll just give it my best and see where things take me. I've already made some friends so things should be good. Just have to keep telling myself to take it one step at a time.
By some stroke of luck or fate, I share an office with my college buddy and friend. It's really kind of nice 'cause I can ask her anything without any fear and since I already know a couple other people in the firm, I'm settling in kind of nicely though there are still some barriers to break -- in a sense.
The entire office is women. I swear, there are like no guys at all in this firm except for one, and that's one of the partners. I can only say this... an ALL WOMEN environment can be an incredibly interesting thing =_=; (No wonder I was warned of office politics prior to my first day of work). But I'll just give it my best and see where things take me. I've already made some friends so things should be good. Just have to keep telling myself to take it one step at a time.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Nerves & Neuroticism
So as I'm about to fall asleep, the night before my first official day of work, I decided to ponder over some things that I need to do, change, or put my foot down on.
One of my resolutions is to be a more responsible adult and tonight, I kind of broke that resolution because I left my place without leaving a note, and I did not send my (somewhat neurotic) mother a message about my whereabouts before I disappeared for a good three hours today. My family worried as I went off with a friend to enjoy "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button," and then when the movie was over, I got a scathing lecture from both panicking mother and worried relatives =_=; *sigh* You would think that after a good twenty something years of living with my mother, I'd figure out by now that no matter what happens, I should always call to tell her where I am even if I'm not living with her anymore just so she won't think I got kidnapped in the city or something =_= *sigh* (And I know some of you are probably raising an eyebrow or two wondering why a twenty-something year-old grown woman would need to make daily phone calls to her mother each night, but seriously, I do it 'cause if I give her a peace of mind, I won't have to get an earful later).
Next, I really should have left a note to my landlady regardless of the situation 'cause now I'm sitting in bed, somewhat unnerved and in a little bit of fear, over what type of lecture awaits me from her in the morning. I did all my (self-assigned) chores today 'cause I feel like I need to be a neat freak out of the two of us in this house; I cooked some food for myself to eat for today and tomorrow; I did the laundry; tidied up my room a bit; and then finished up my CPA exam application. I got quite a bit done and was a bit exhausted so when I left with my friend to go to the movies, everything else just kind of slipped my mind. I don't even remember if I locked the front door on my way out. I only remember forgetting to turn the hallway light inside off, and leaving the front door light on, but then can't recall if I shook the doorknob at least once just so I knew it was locked or not. If I indeed forgot to lock it... I am so -- and I mean so, oh so bloody -- screwed. Credibility is something easily lost and not easily redeemed. My landlady and I have only really known each other for a little over a week, so we are still in the testing stages of our (somewhat bumpy) relationship. I would hate for her to lose trust in me and start treating me poorly for one (somewhat big) indiscretion (that was really an accident) =_=
So, while those fears occupy my mind, I have another case that I would like solved sometime soon in the future. One of my friends insist on visiting me during her spring break from graduate school, and I keep trying to turn her down and re-direct her vacation plans to sometime later (like during the summer) so I have time to focus on my job and not feel like I'm going to neglect when she's driven so many miles and hours just to see me. I tell her that I am going to be too busy to take time off, and she tells me that she is sure to charm my bosses because they are the parents of one of our former classmates. She confidently professes that she has been able to charm her high school best friend's mother -- who in her words "was a pickle" -- but I really want to tell her that "Yes, my employers are indeed the parents of our friend and classmate, and yes she may be very charming, but PLEASE remember that I am a NEW hire and these people are my BOSSES." They are not just the parents of a friend, and it's not like they are my parents, so I have no intentions of bringing my visiting friends to meet these parents -- whom have no blood relations to me -- especially during busy season, because in the end, these people are my BOSSES and I really would like to do well on my first official job during my probation period. I really want to do well, so I would really like my friend to understand me and not push me when I say "Please, DO NOT come visit me during spring break."
Anyway, I've spent way too much time ranting and should get some sleep. I need to be up at 7 in the morning, eat a good breakfast, and be dressed for work by 8, then drop off my mail at the post office at 8:30, and be at work by 8:45. Yes, I need a good full 2 hours to wake up, so I really should sign off now. Wish me luck for tomorrow.
One of my resolutions is to be a more responsible adult and tonight, I kind of broke that resolution because I left my place without leaving a note, and I did not send my (somewhat neurotic) mother a message about my whereabouts before I disappeared for a good three hours today. My family worried as I went off with a friend to enjoy "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button," and then when the movie was over, I got a scathing lecture from both panicking mother and worried relatives =_=; *sigh* You would think that after a good twenty something years of living with my mother, I'd figure out by now that no matter what happens, I should always call to tell her where I am even if I'm not living with her anymore just so she won't think I got kidnapped in the city or something =_= *sigh* (And I know some of you are probably raising an eyebrow or two wondering why a twenty-something year-old grown woman would need to make daily phone calls to her mother each night, but seriously, I do it 'cause if I give her a peace of mind, I won't have to get an earful later).
Next, I really should have left a note to my landlady regardless of the situation 'cause now I'm sitting in bed, somewhat unnerved and in a little bit of fear, over what type of lecture awaits me from her in the morning. I did all my (self-assigned) chores today 'cause I feel like I need to be a neat freak out of the two of us in this house; I cooked some food for myself to eat for today and tomorrow; I did the laundry; tidied up my room a bit; and then finished up my CPA exam application. I got quite a bit done and was a bit exhausted so when I left with my friend to go to the movies, everything else just kind of slipped my mind. I don't even remember if I locked the front door on my way out. I only remember forgetting to turn the hallway light inside off, and leaving the front door light on, but then can't recall if I shook the doorknob at least once just so I knew it was locked or not. If I indeed forgot to lock it... I am so -- and I mean so, oh so bloody -- screwed. Credibility is something easily lost and not easily redeemed. My landlady and I have only really known each other for a little over a week, so we are still in the testing stages of our (somewhat bumpy) relationship. I would hate for her to lose trust in me and start treating me poorly for one (somewhat big) indiscretion (that was really an accident) =_=
So, while those fears occupy my mind, I have another case that I would like solved sometime soon in the future. One of my friends insist on visiting me during her spring break from graduate school, and I keep trying to turn her down and re-direct her vacation plans to sometime later (like during the summer) so I have time to focus on my job and not feel like I'm going to neglect when she's driven so many miles and hours just to see me. I tell her that I am going to be too busy to take time off, and she tells me that she is sure to charm my bosses because they are the parents of one of our former classmates. She confidently professes that she has been able to charm her high school best friend's mother -- who in her words "was a pickle" -- but I really want to tell her that "Yes, my employers are indeed the parents of our friend and classmate, and yes she may be very charming, but PLEASE remember that I am a NEW hire and these people are my BOSSES." They are not just the parents of a friend, and it's not like they are my parents, so I have no intentions of bringing my visiting friends to meet these parents -- whom have no blood relations to me -- especially during busy season, because in the end, these people are my BOSSES and I really would like to do well on my first official job during my probation period. I really want to do well, so I would really like my friend to understand me and not push me when I say "Please, DO NOT come visit me during spring break."
Anyway, I've spent way too much time ranting and should get some sleep. I need to be up at 7 in the morning, eat a good breakfast, and be dressed for work by 8, then drop off my mail at the post office at 8:30, and be at work by 8:45. Yes, I need a good full 2 hours to wake up, so I really should sign off now. Wish me luck for tomorrow.
Saturday, January 3, 2009
Taking Charge of My Destiny
So I decided to give the CBA office a call yesterday and that solved all my problems. As I was going out for my walk, one of the office workers there returned my call and told me that the server for the site was fixed so I should be able to apply for the CPA exam now. I thanked them, hung up, and hurried home so I could set things up. After filling out all the information and such, I submitted the online portion, ordered my transcripts online to be sent to the CBA office, and then was able to print out the remittance slip today at my great uncle's place (plus got envelope + stamps) so I can send everything on Monday (or I guess I can just put it in the drop box tomorrow when I get home).
Now... after all that's finished, I just need to get through the first week of work alright, and buy study materials for the exam =_= I'd like to do the financial portion first, but if the only items I can find are in regulation or audit, I'll just pick one of the two to start with =_=; *sigh* Maybe regulation would be fun... ... (or not)...
Anyway... other than CPA or accounting-related stuff...
I went to hang out with my great aunt and uncle today and they took me shopping for my room. It was great to be able to get out of the house! I'm having some issues with where I'm living at the moment 'cause on the exterior, I'm getting really well and along with my housemate, but beneath that little business smile I have on my face, I'm kinda steaming at some things that I have to go through.
I'll have to save the complaints for another day, but all I can say that I'm getting a good education on how to get along with people you may not be too fond of, but have to deal with it all anyway. I'm kind of getting to understand myself better as well, like what type of responsible, tidy, clean (and possibly neurotic) being that I am and why I should love myself more 'cause I'm a good -- and I mean, a VERY good (as in painfully prudent) -- person.
I love CLEAN. Shoes off, clean walls, no cobwebs, no specks of dust, no bugs of any kind (living or dead), and things are all properly put away. I really don't like people who talk arrogantly, who walk around houses in shoes, have offices full of debris and junk that's accumulated over the span of a decade, and is ultra sensitive to things you say so that it becomes difficult to make conversation with them 'cause they have such intense reactions. And no, one cannot say "Well, maybe you said it wrong," 'cause I KNOW when I am untactful or undiplomatic 'cause I am VERY good with the things I say around certain people.
I want to treat this person as a friend and talk in close terms with them, but if turning casual and losing that edge of diplomacy sets her off, then fie! I will just be so painfully tactful that it's like working in a restaurant all over again. I am GOOD at catering to others at the expense of my wellbeing and sanity, and I am PATIENT when it comes to taking abuse from customers or those who are senior to my age. All I have to do is wait until the time is right and then leave. I don't want to waste my energy on someone who is only fond of talking and not much listening. I also don't want to fight or list out faults 'cause that's just childish. I'm taking it like a grown adult and I'm going to walk away when the time is right. So yes, no further details other than saying that I am very annoyed with some things, but I will deal with it accordingly.
Anyway... enough of ranting. I'm off to do some reading and finish writing a couple message replies before it's off to bed I go.
Now... after all that's finished, I just need to get through the first week of work alright, and buy study materials for the exam =_= I'd like to do the financial portion first, but if the only items I can find are in regulation or audit, I'll just pick one of the two to start with =_=; *sigh* Maybe regulation would be fun... ... (or not)...
Anyway... other than CPA or accounting-related stuff...
I went to hang out with my great aunt and uncle today and they took me shopping for my room. It was great to be able to get out of the house! I'm having some issues with where I'm living at the moment 'cause on the exterior, I'm getting really well and along with my housemate, but beneath that little business smile I have on my face, I'm kinda steaming at some things that I have to go through.
I'll have to save the complaints for another day, but all I can say that I'm getting a good education on how to get along with people you may not be too fond of, but have to deal with it all anyway. I'm kind of getting to understand myself better as well, like what type of responsible, tidy, clean (and possibly neurotic) being that I am and why I should love myself more 'cause I'm a good -- and I mean, a VERY good (as in painfully prudent) -- person.
I love CLEAN. Shoes off, clean walls, no cobwebs, no specks of dust, no bugs of any kind (living or dead), and things are all properly put away. I really don't like people who talk arrogantly, who walk around houses in shoes, have offices full of debris and junk that's accumulated over the span of a decade, and is ultra sensitive to things you say so that it becomes difficult to make conversation with them 'cause they have such intense reactions. And no, one cannot say "Well, maybe you said it wrong," 'cause I KNOW when I am untactful or undiplomatic 'cause I am VERY good with the things I say around certain people.
I want to treat this person as a friend and talk in close terms with them, but if turning casual and losing that edge of diplomacy sets her off, then fie! I will just be so painfully tactful that it's like working in a restaurant all over again. I am GOOD at catering to others at the expense of my wellbeing and sanity, and I am PATIENT when it comes to taking abuse from customers or those who are senior to my age. All I have to do is wait until the time is right and then leave. I don't want to waste my energy on someone who is only fond of talking and not much listening. I also don't want to fight or list out faults 'cause that's just childish. I'm taking it like a grown adult and I'm going to walk away when the time is right. So yes, no further details other than saying that I am very annoyed with some things, but I will deal with it accordingly.
Anyway... enough of ranting. I'm off to do some reading and finish writing a couple message replies before it's off to bed I go.
Friday, January 2, 2009
Why Won't My Dreams Work?
There are times when I have dreams and it foreshadows certain events in my life and then there are dreams that just simply tease me and make me angry when I discover that they are not true. For instance...
When I was in eighth grade, I had this dream about receiving my test back from my natural sciences class when my teacher had finished grading all of them and I missed the waxing/waning moon question 'cause I mixed the two up. It was an extremely detailed dream, because I saw the bubble that I filled out for the question and I also knew that I was wrong. Then I woke up and I wondered if I really did get the score that I saw from my dream. A day later when I was in class and my teacher handed out all the tests back, it was like deja vu from the dream I had. I really did miss the waxing/waning moon question and I did get the same score as I did in my dream. It was incredibly deja vu.
Alright, then last night, I had a dream that the bloody California Board of Accountancy's link for starting a new CPA exam applicant client was working, but when I went to test it out this morning... it DID NOT work! Talk about disappointing and what a tease my dream turned out to be =_=; How irritating. I just want to apply for the CPA exam and the process takes 6-8 weeks so I'd like to do it asap. I just wish I had done it sooner now =_= I really wasted too much time. *sigh*
Anyway, still looking for CPA review materials, but also watching my bank balance rather closely =_=
When I was in eighth grade, I had this dream about receiving my test back from my natural sciences class when my teacher had finished grading all of them and I missed the waxing/waning moon question 'cause I mixed the two up. It was an extremely detailed dream, because I saw the bubble that I filled out for the question and I also knew that I was wrong. Then I woke up and I wondered if I really did get the score that I saw from my dream. A day later when I was in class and my teacher handed out all the tests back, it was like deja vu from the dream I had. I really did miss the waxing/waning moon question and I did get the same score as I did in my dream. It was incredibly deja vu.
Alright, then last night, I had a dream that the bloody California Board of Accountancy's link for starting a new CPA exam applicant client was working, but when I went to test it out this morning... it DID NOT work! Talk about disappointing and what a tease my dream turned out to be =_=; How irritating. I just want to apply for the CPA exam and the process takes 6-8 weeks so I'd like to do it asap. I just wish I had done it sooner now =_= I really wasted too much time. *sigh*
Anyway, still looking for CPA review materials, but also watching my bank balance rather closely =_=
Thursday, January 1, 2009
2009 Day One
So it's finally 2009 and I really need to get a move on a couple things. My biggest goal right now is to get my CPA license by the end of next year so I'm trying to fill out applications and such right now, but there are two problems... one is that the California Board of Accountancy is just ridiculously slow at loading things and two is getting the money to purchase all these study materials and such =_=;
The first problem, I really have no idea of how to solve it 'cause it's definitely not my connection. It's frustrating 'cause applications take around 6-8 weeks to process and I've wasted too much time already so seeing this website not do what it's bloody-well supposed to do is just plain aggravating =_=; *groans* It keeps giving me this "Page Error" message, which is really vexing me =_=; *sigh*
Maybe I should just apply in Oregon =_=... ... ... ... but I'm already out of Oregon =_=; *sigh* Oh well. I'll get someone to help me with this in a few days, I suppose.
I can't believe I start work in a few more days @_@; Such a bizarre thought. I hope I do a good job and the bosses like me. I also hope I'm able to steer away from the office politics that's been going on apparently. I don't really know what's going on, but my friend and one of our coworkers got into a mini argument about one of the people at the firm and our coworker is wondering if my friend has told me about the thing that's been going on at the office. Well, my friend hasn't told me anything 'cause she wants me to go in with an unbiased and open mind, but our coworker wanted to spill everything out to me -- though very incoherent and not exactly most comprehensible-sounding -- so I would be wary of this lady.
I find it a bit funny, I guess. I'm not very biased before getting to know someone so no matter what someone tells me, I always take it with a grain of salt. My friend, on the other hand, is pretty biased based on first impressions and doesn't always see the good merits in others until a lot later so that's why she thinks I think the same way as her and may become judgmental after what our coworker has told me. Then there's my coworker, who wants to look out for me, but in a way kind of wants me to pick a side too. Of course, when I was listening to her and my friend arguing over details and such, it sounded like a bunch of gibberish 'cause I couldn't make out what they were talking about at all. I figured I'd just find out for myself once I get started rather than think too much about it =_=;
Anyway... I'm still looking for study materials that don't cost over $2,000 =_=; I really am pretty darn poor right now so I can't really buy anything =_=; *sigh* It's so sad. I just need to save up and be careful with what I spend I guess =_= *sigh*
Well, those are some of the things occupying my mind on day one of the new year.
The first problem, I really have no idea of how to solve it 'cause it's definitely not my connection. It's frustrating 'cause applications take around 6-8 weeks to process and I've wasted too much time already so seeing this website not do what it's bloody-well supposed to do is just plain aggravating =_=; *groans* It keeps giving me this "Page Error" message, which is really vexing me =_=; *sigh*
Maybe I should just apply in Oregon =_=... ... ... ... but I'm already out of Oregon =_=; *sigh* Oh well. I'll get someone to help me with this in a few days, I suppose.
I can't believe I start work in a few more days @_@; Such a bizarre thought. I hope I do a good job and the bosses like me. I also hope I'm able to steer away from the office politics that's been going on apparently. I don't really know what's going on, but my friend and one of our coworkers got into a mini argument about one of the people at the firm and our coworker is wondering if my friend has told me about the thing that's been going on at the office. Well, my friend hasn't told me anything 'cause she wants me to go in with an unbiased and open mind, but our coworker wanted to spill everything out to me -- though very incoherent and not exactly most comprehensible-sounding -- so I would be wary of this lady.
I find it a bit funny, I guess. I'm not very biased before getting to know someone so no matter what someone tells me, I always take it with a grain of salt. My friend, on the other hand, is pretty biased based on first impressions and doesn't always see the good merits in others until a lot later so that's why she thinks I think the same way as her and may become judgmental after what our coworker has told me. Then there's my coworker, who wants to look out for me, but in a way kind of wants me to pick a side too. Of course, when I was listening to her and my friend arguing over details and such, it sounded like a bunch of gibberish 'cause I couldn't make out what they were talking about at all. I figured I'd just find out for myself once I get started rather than think too much about it =_=;
Anyway... I'm still looking for study materials that don't cost over $2,000 =_=; I really am pretty darn poor right now so I can't really buy anything =_=; *sigh* It's so sad. I just need to save up and be careful with what I spend I guess =_= *sigh*
Well, those are some of the things occupying my mind on day one of the new year.
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