After Graduation, Then What...?

A year ago I had an idea and basically a plan on how to successfully meet my goal in becoming a CPA and work for a public accounting firm. Then a year later, I'm sitting here thinking to myself ... "I really should get a move on this job search thing, and get registered for the Becker classes this summer." Unfortunately, I am so burnt out at the moment that I'm not sure if I even want to go through with my original plan. I really can't sponge off my parents while I'm jobless, but I really do not want to keep working for them at the restaurant. After so many years of doing restaurant work, I really want to retire from it. *sigh*

I did an internship last term and it was the most rigorous challenge of my life so I'm pretty beat this last term of my college career. I was managing club activities, two jobs on top of the internship, and just surviving tax season all together. I made it through, but still haven't heard from the firm yet so not sure if I have a job yet or not. I think it's pretty silly of me to bank my future on an unknown proposition, because I really should be exerting more effort out towards finding a job so I have some security in knowing that there is something waiting for me after graduation. At least after high school, I knew I was going to college. Now... I'm kind of sitting here going .... "Um.... what next?"

I want to do something fun for the summer, but I'm pretty low on cash at the moment and pretty deep in debt =_=;;; I don't like being in debt, it's not a pretty feeling. *sigh* This is why I need a job =_=; Why can't I just get off my lazy ass and go look for one =_=;; *sigh* Well, I'm sure things will work itself out once things start calming down. I still have three more weeks of school left so it should be ok even if I do not look for a job now. There are lots of CPA firms out there and I really don't mind which one I work for as long as it's in public accounting and local. I would really like to stay here in my hometown and not have to go anywhere for now, though the thought of working overseas actually sounds very attractive. The only problem is that I don't think I can survive working in a country where I cannot communicate well with clients. That would really bum me out, because I would like to be able to explain things to them without tripping over myself. Well, we'll see what happens.

I have been going back to IRC again as of lately. Now that my undergrad life is coming to an end, I may actually have more time to do the things I like such as scanlating, etc. I really liked scanlating, but I was always drowning in projects and homework so it made pretty difficult to get anything done. If only I have a better scanner, I could do my own scanlations like some of the one-woman groups out there ^__^ (i.e. PresenceDear, Celestial-Delinquent, etc.) I would like to be able to do things at my own pace rather than rush through on deadlines and such.

I want to practice drawing again 'cause my art style's really gone down the drain. I can't draw anymore, it's really sad. My dream is to become a mangaka, but I think I've fallen pretty far from the apple tree now =_= Not sure if I can recover any technical skills I might have had up to a couple years ago... I might have to just settle for writing with illustrations. Plus, I still can't do backgrounds =_= Maybe I just lack talent after all.

Oh well, I guess I'll just think about all of this a little later. Still need to focus on surviving these last three weeks.