Activities To Explore

So... for the weekend, I was rather lonely 'cause all my friends disappeared on me to other great adventures so I kind of sat and stared most of Friday night. I scrolled through my phonebook on my cellphone and there was no particular number I wanted to call at all 'cause either that person is busy, or they're just mere acquaintances. I ended up calling up two of my friends from college and my mother to try and ease my boredom and find an outlet for my growing depression. Well, the conversation with my mother did not help much, but then I chatted with my friend from L.A. and she gave me some ideas to explore.

Right now, I feel like I'm trapped in a job that I may not ever get better in and am not sure if it's something I want to do for the rest of my life. I feel like I was never really allowed to dream, so I'll never really get to do what I want, but because I've banished so many of my dreams down the road back in the day, I don't even know what it is that I really want to do with my life. The thought's really depressing so I've just been re-evaluating my life. I currently have nothing really that stimulates my interest in any way, so my friend told me that I should try out some activities that I may like. Even if it's something I might not be interested in now, maybe once I try it I will like it. She said cooking classes can be fun, or dancing classes, pottery classes, etc.

I've never really thought about participating in any local activities before so that gave me something to think about. Right now, I think one of my desires is still to open a restaurant with a bar, so maybe if I take some cooking classes or bartending classes, I'll be able to move closer to that dream. I don't think I'll ever be able to be a mangaka or a writer so I should still stick with something that's a bit more practical. I still need to work the job I'm currently at to get to the stage where I can open my own business, but it's not too bad if I find something else that'll make me happy.

Since most of my girlfriends are basically attaching themselves to men, I'm going to be pretty lonely in the months (and probably years) ahead if I'm still by myself, so I need to expand my circle of friends by going out and trying new things. I really hope I'm not lazy about this and actually try to do something fun and useful lol. I'd like to take salsa or tango, and I'd like to take pastry-making classes. I was told by my friend that I need to be happier, I need to do things that make me happy and not care what other people think. She says that I have this tendency to believe that I don't deserve anything good in this world, and that's one of my problems that I need to fix 'cause I do deserve better and I do deserve to be happy, so I need to go out there and have some fun with, or without my current set of friends.

So... I'm looking for activities around town now to do. I hope something pops up and gets me inspired for the future.