Omiai!?

You'd think by now that I'd be able to let it go when my parents joke around about arranging a match for me with one of their friends' son, but now that I'm at a marriageable age, it's harder to just let it slide. There are times when the idea of an omiai sound kind of neat and something I'm willing to do, and then for some reason, hearing it during other times makes me want to run in the opposite direction. For instance...

A couple months ago when my parents were joking about setting me up on an omiai, I was totally fine with the joke and even laughed with them about it. Just today when we were chatting about my dad's longtime friend and about how this friend asked for a picture of me and then them talking about becoming in-laws really freaked me out. I mean, here I am ready to leave the nest for a new place and I have all these plans that I would like to do once I'm in Sausalito. If I meet this guy, it's like tying me down in a way. The scariest thing about a possible omiai is that if things go well, people are pushing for grandkids and I'm not ready to be a mother.

I know I'm thinking way too soon into the future, but it's always good to be cautious about things =_= Plus, there's no guarantee that I will ever get to meet this guy. My dad is too slow and dense at times to pick up on subtleties in conversation so nothing really ever happens even if the other party suggests that we meet =_=; At times, I curse my dad for being dense and other times, I'm so glad that he is =_=;

The other guy sounds really nice. He's older than me by three years and finishing up dentistry school. He's a bit heavyset, but then again so am I. He's also very shy. Then again that's all I've heard about him.

I don't know why I'm freaking out, but the thought of an omiai is kind of strange to me right now. I guess it's because I'm weird and I think too much. Yeah... maybe I will just stop thinking about it.